Friday, April 30, 2010

Grappling with the Blue-Eyed Devil: Part 2A

Now is when my struggle began, because I found myself attracted to a white man and against my own personal will.  How did I feel?  I felt confused, ambivalent, mixed up, embarrassed, ashamed, and amazed.  The music says it better than I can.

Puzzling over what to do made me come out of my self somewhat; was I really who I thought I was, and who was Jake?  I was not supposed to be intimately connected with a man like him.  He certainly was not my type of guy or was he?  And I still don't have it completely figured out.

1 comment:

  1. Toshiko!

    I love the vamp she's playing with her left hand. :)

    Great choice!