I have a serious problem.
For some irrational reason I am fearful of what other people think. I mean people who do not know me and I do not know them. Then there are the people who think they know me that I do not have a relationship with.
I did not have this problem when I was younger. When I got married I changed. Why did I change? I was trying to fit into a new environment. We moved from a state I liked to a state I will never fit into.
As I get older I do not have the energy to try to fit in. Also, people work my nerves with their bullshit. One of the things that I have slowly learned and accepted is that all people, that is everybody, have faults, problems, and disappointments. Yet they continually put other people down. Probably to deflect attention from themselves. I admit I am occasionally guilty of this too.
From now on I am going to concentrate on myself and ignore what most people say about me, usually behind my back. I am going to work on my goals and try to please myself and try to leave other people alone most of the time. Yep. I will let Bub make his own mistakes just like I did. It really feels good to live this way.
Be good to yourself or I'm going to talk about you.